From jelly legs to whirrling churning buckets of nerves

Well if you read the last blog you will understand the title a bit better…so go flipping read it somebody! Lol.

Yes, nerves now because I have another “date” with the woman who made by body turn in to something made by Rowntree’s. Nerves now because she has made it quite plain what she wants to do on this date and it involves just me and her imagination. Nerves now because I have never been in that situation before and to be frank…I’m scared. Well, nervous to the nth degree maybe more correct but you get the picture.

Is it possible to fall for someone after only one meeting? Maybe it’s just lust that I feel or perhaps just a release of something that has been tied up inside of me for so many years. All I know, as I think I said before, is that I cannot stop thinking about her. Hoping for an email when I awake or texts on the way to work or late night chitter chatter waffling about silly monkey business.

I can’t wait for tomorrow evening and yet at the same time it’s making me feel like I want to be sick. I can’t wait for tomorrow evening and yet at the same time I am already sorrowful for her having to go home.

Just hope that she doesn’t turn up and take one look at me and realise what a terrible mistake she has made. I just hope…