I’m not fine by the way

Why is it that almost everyone I chat to on-line these days doesn’t seem even the slightest bit interested in how I am feeling? It gets to the point where I sit there waiting for just a general, “how are you?” or “how’s life?” but nothing appears. I mean this is after an hour or more of chatting…when conversations are coming to a close.

I’ve listened to their woes and tried to help them through their problems, which I don’t mind, as I am a good listener and resolver, so I have been told. But how can so many people be so self-centered to not even think of asking how someone else is? Do they do that with everyone they know or just me? Have I become the doormat for their muddy souls (deliberate)?

Maybe I just need to change the people I hang about with online or perhaps reassess how I deal with people. Perhaps next time I wont ask them how they are and the conversation will just be an empty chat window. Going nowhere. Like “friendships” often do in the end.

Empty

I read this quote quite some time ago and it’s stuck with me ever since. I had been pondering the meanings and workings of  people and friendships too much at the time and it’s odd how this just happened to pop up. Do others feel like this when they realise certain truths?

“I didn’t realise that you can’t make old friends, that you can only lose them, and that in losing them you walk around with a void inside that you can never adequately explain.“

- Beth Kephart (Into the Tangle of Friendship)